After the anxiety of yesterday and the uncertainty of Ann Marie’s future we watched the last three episodes of 13 reasons why. This was a bad idea for two reasons. First we were up until 11:30 and then for reasons I am about to explain I couldn’t sleep.

WARNING : 13 Reasons Why Spoilers!!!!

In the final episodes we see our beloved main character raped, we see her lose all hope, finish the tapes and then the show vividly depicts her slitting her wrists and dying in a bathtub full of water. Then they show her parents finding her dead body. Fucking heart-wrenching.


So needless to say I was emotionally scarred heading to bed past my bed time. I ended up sleeping past my alarm, not getting the kids breakfast ready, not practicing guitar or talking to xixi, and rushing out the door to a dentist appointment. I will get back on track tomorrow morning of course but it’s just been a weird morning.

I came home after the dentists office and have been sitting on my couch across from Ann Marie drinking coffee and writing this blog entry. I am truly happy here in this moment. If I had any talent or knew how to write a book I think I could be a writer.

Ann Marie and I talked about friendships last night. She said I have lots of good friendships I should pursue and try to rekindle. Tim, Matt, and Chad are her top picks. I agree I think. I have been focused on me and my family so long I’ve forgotten really what i’m supposed to do. I feel like everyone has a life except me sometimes.


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